Mummy, I truly hope you've learnt your mistake.
Yes, we can still sense tht youre not really telling the truth.
But we have decided to let everything go.
You have no idea how badly you've hurt the whole family, especially Dad.
Seeing the whole family cry....... Grandma, dad, even bro, and of course, myself, as well as you, hurts me so so much.
Cus such an unfortunate thing like seeing the whole family cry, has never happened before.
Im extremely hurt...... deep down. I just didnt show it.
I still act like im alright, cus I dont want to make things worse for the both of you.
Yes, bro is hurt as well, but can he ever understand, or feel the amount of pain like I do?
Knowing that your own Dad doubt whether youre his real child........
& the fact that this suspicion, came directly from his mouth, to my ears?
The moment he said this,
'Pardon me, but I really doubt whether youre my child. So I blurted it out to your Mum. Im sorry.'
I tried to act strong when he told me about what you did, Mum.
But aft he said that, it was too much. Too much for me to handle.
The moment I knew abt the contents of this matter, together w the suspicion of whether im Dad's real child, I broke down.
I was two years old, mum.
When Dad made us look through the photos when I was two, and bro was five, I just had to cry.
Cus we were so young and innocent, we were so happy as a family...
How could you have done that? How could you bear to even do that?
Honestly, im so afraid that even up till now, you've not learnt your mistake.
I still doubt you, and pray so hard that im wrong.
Cus if its really true......... I'd be so hurt that I wont be able to forgive you again.
I tell myself everyday, that I need to trust you.
I hope you dont ever betray this trust again, Mum.
Sigh. This period will definitely be the hardest for both you and Dad.
But I really hope time can heal Dad's wounds and that we'll be a family again.
I know you two are staying together just to allow the family to be as one, as what Bro and I had wanted.
But both of us aint happy, cus we know this family... Isnt a family anymore.
& That you two are just together on the surface, for the sake of us.
So...
God, please let Dad's scar heal asap and please guide my mum, and not let her do anything foolish anymore. Amen.
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