Diarrhea & Flu in the Morn yet I had t-t comps, almost fell thrice, saw smth that hurt me to the max.

It really was tough to handle my emotions yesterday.

I dont knw hw to explain the amt of guilt I feel, nor do I knw how to express how sorry I am.

Team, I really am deeply sorry, and im really so grateful and thankful for your concern and support.

Though I know we blew it up, y'all still gave us the utmost amt of care and concern.

I thought I wouldnt be that attached to the team yet, cus afterall im still new here.

But aft seeing how we supported each other, I just have to say,

TPJC tabletennis FTW, 100%.

Thankyou & sorry team. x Infinity.

Those ppl who are close to me shld alr knw what was the other thing tht rly upset me so much.

I was truly shocked and disappointed. And, I feel maligned.

It's like, I was given the death penalty without knowing the crime I commited.

I even plead for mercy though I had no clue what was going on.

But when I saw those scenes, oh damnit.

I swear I take back those words abt 'pleading for mercy'.

They were right.

I dont deserve such treatment.

And at least I saw the truth at the end of the day.

You dont treasure this, neither will I.

I treasured this so fucking much, so damn much.

But this was just trash to the other party.

I nvr expected such behaviour frm y'all, ever.

But you surprised me, really did.

And yes, I was indeed that fucking hurt.

But again, at least I saw the truth at the end of the day.

& I dont even wanna bother abt anyth tht has to do w y'all ever again.

Cus y'all dont even deserve it aft how I was treated.

Concluded that yesterday really was the worst or one of the worst breakdowns ever.

But I got slightly better, cause of the fellow TPJC-ians.

Im grateful for all the friends and teammates that I have in TPJC.

I can tell they truly care about me.

When im upset, they constantly try to cheer me up and make sure I get some attention and their fullest support at all times.

It really was a blessing in disguise to come to this school ♥

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