Back pain every single trng.
But I dont wna tell them cus I dont want them to pity me and let me rest,
cus they need me and I wna play my part well ; I wna put in that amt of effort that im supposed to put in, for them.
Yet, at the same time, it's so tough tolerating the pain and acting like im totally fine.
Im always at the bench outside of the tabletennis room when I have a break during trng.
Cus that's when Im alone, that's when I dont have to pretend im fine.
My teammates must be wondering why im such an emo kid.
And im always lying that it's cus it's too hot in the room.
I rather let them think im emo and a loner, than to let them know the truth.
Sometimes it's just so tough to fake this.
And no, I did not write this post cus im emo or I want sympathy.
I wrote this cus it bothers me, and I like to write it out when smth bothers me.
As simple as that.
Andddd, I know I have a scary-looking face that probably offends everyone upon the first sight.
Im tired and unhappy of hearing that, though I knw its the truth.
But it's not like I can decide how I look.
Im ugly, and im just scary-looking. You think I wanna look like that?
So PLEASE, get to know me, or approach and talk to me, before you decide to craft that negative impression of me.
If after talking to me, you still wna have that negative impression, then so be it :)
Cus at least you dont "judge a book by its cover"
Really appreciate that, thankyou.
(So formal I know. But its cus this is so serious and significant to me.)
Goodbye.
♥ 9:27 PM
