Yoz im back agn cus I suddenly have the 'hweeeel' yknw.
K, feel.
Sorry to disappoint you agn, no pictures as usual haha! :)
Sch has been...... Tiring obviously.
Everyday when I reach home, the first thing my parents will say is,
'You look very tired'
'Why so moody today?'
Who made me feel this way everyday in the first place?
K I shall nt go into ranting mode, I shall be contented w what I have.
Just........ Filled w some regrets, till now.
Dont get me wrong, my friends are pretty awesome, theyre the ones who make me smile/laugh through all the stress shitz!
And surprisingly, all 18 girls in my class are relatively nice, no certain bitchy or backstabber characteristics just yet.
Im really glad :D
But, who wouldnt feel stressed up to the max, when youre one of the few (1/4 to be exact) who took Combined Sci in sec sch?
Adding onnnnnnn, im the only one in the whole Bio group to have no Bio backgrnd at all.
Nope, you didnt read wrongly, neither are you blind.
My teacher said this during lecture, in front of the whole group today,
'You all should know this (Some bio thingy) cus you all went through this in O lvl Bio right? Okay except for that one person who do not have any Bio backgrnd. That person should work extremely/doubly hard.'
I knw she meant well, but you have no idea how looked down I felt, and the amount of stress that I never knew existed.
Throughout the whole lecture, the thought of whether to go back to taking Physics or press on and continue to take Bio changed here and thr at the rate of a machine gun.
You have no idea how close I was into giving this up. Really, that close.
But FOR NOW, I decided to still press on.
I hope I have enough ammo to survive this.
Combined Sci + No bio backgrnd.
Many would be going,
'Youre kidding me right?'
Ah in any case, I knw I have to work X (Who knws how many times) harder than the rest, cus of the above reasons. The amt of stress is rly so........... overwhelming.
So overwhelming that I rly cant take it at times.
Why was I such a damn slacker in sch last time, HONESTLY.
Cus im so not used to this.........
But im still trying.
I knw all these may sound exaggerating to some of you, but you'll nvr truly understand unless youre me.
So, yeah, if you think its exaggerating, so be it.
Just that, you dont have to let me know :)
Lol.
Tata!
P.s I knw my current partner wont see this, but its her birthday tmr. She's a nice j2 senior plus partner! So, HAPPY BIRTHDAY! :D
P.s I still miss Rachtan as my partner, definitely. Playing w my new partner just reminds me of you! I miss the high times we used to have together w Jyening and Hannah as well. My current trng is just lacking smth, and that's you girls.
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