Sometimes I rly dont understand........
Why cant I be like majority of the 17yr old girls out there.
Healthy.
There were so many CCAs I wanted to try out for.
Modern Dance, Volleyball, Softball, Hockey etc.
But I couldnt.
I choose to have 'no life', choose not to betray my teammates, than to choose another CCA and worsen my back.
People go,
'You join so long not sian meh?'
'Join same CCA for so long damn no life ley'
'So sian to join same CCA agn, join other CCAs lahh'
'Why dont want try out for other CCAs?'
They.dont.understand.at.all.
They dont understand that im dying to join other CCAs, but I cant.
Dont understand how much it means to me, when I see that 0.1mm improvement in my back, while they say $75 per session is a total waste of money and time cus 0.1mm improvement is nth.
Dont understand how guilty I feel wasting my Mum's money just for that back.
Dont understand the feeling of being looked down on, having ppl giving the look of sympathy, and people asking 'why you so many problems one?'
Sorry, I just needed to let all this out.
Just tired and frustrated of all the comments about me joining tabletennis again.
I have some reasons, that made me join tabletennis willingly.
And also some reasons, that forced me to join it.
No matter what, I am in tabletennis, like it, or not.
Since im alr in it, I choose to stay w my teammates.
Cus I wont betray them for some non-sports CCA either.
Ugh k I shall not rant any further...........
Just dislike the feeling whereby you feel awful but noone truly understands.
Last note to make:
I should still be glad and contented, that im healthier than some people out there.
When you think yur life sucks, there are people whose lives suck a hundred times more than you.
Contented, no matter what.
♥ 10:36 PM
