We got our subject combi today, and all I could do was just :O and stare blankly at the list.

My first choice was H1 Bio and second choice H1 Physics.

I was alr prepared to get my second choice since it's essential to have a Bio backgrnd in order to take up Bio.

But guess what, THEY LET ME TAKE H1 BIO!!!!!!!!!!!

I was like seriously extremely hyped up hahahahaa.

I wanna thank Junjie for trying to cheer me up.

He said that maybe this is really a predetermined path.

That im fated to go tpjc, and that i'll do better in there and like it as time goes by.

Though I didnt manage to appeal earlier and sacrificed a place in SA and Nanyang,

I finally believe that maybe all this is really fated.

Yes, my score was eligible to get into Nanyang, but I didnt.

Ive been feeling rly down abt it, and felt that no matter how hard I try, im just stuck in tpjc.

But after all, I believe God has plans for us.

Cus I managed to get Bio here, which is totally impossible in SA or Nanyang.

Not to mention H2 Chem and Math as well.

And the people are actually pretty nice!

So, thankyou God :)

However, what followed after was fear.

Im afraid I cant cope, cus Bio is like some stranger to me.

Whereas, Physics is the subj tht im considered good at IMO........

So now im thinking whether to take Bio or Physics.

I dont want to retain and im really afraid I cant cope,

but Bio's interesting to me and im really lucky to be able to take it.

I've asked myself if I really like Bio..........

And I seriously have no idea.

I know I suck at memory work,

but I just feel obliged to take Bio cus I want to find a cure for Dad's illness.

So naturally, Biomed just became a goal in my life.

Also, I've not decided whether to join back tabletennis or not.

It feels awesome to know that youre at least good at something.

And I realised that I've not lost the passion for it.

Cus of my back, Ive been deproving.

And all along, Ive been using the same excuse that I've lost passion for it, just to avoid the fact tht I've deproved.

When im able to play well, I gain back that passion.

What a loser right.

Ah but I also wna try smth new...............

And a whole lot of other reasons why I dont wanna join t-t again.

It's not always about doing what I like, sometimes it's more wise to stick to smth youre good at.

And vice versa of course.

So much thoughts skittering in and out of my mind.....

But afterall,

It all comes down to,

Which obviously applies to both my CCA and subject combi sigh..........

This may sound nothing to you, but it actually affects my future.

So yeah, I hope I make the right choice asap.

K im a guaikia wo qu du shu le.

And (clap)(clap)(clap) if you managed to read the whole thing lol.

Tata.